The fact is, that to do anything in the world worth doing, we must not stand back shivering and thinking of the cold and danger, but jump in and scramble through as well as we can. – Robert Cushing
I know that sounds scary, and maybe even a bit crazy. It is. Whatever we are endeavoring to do, no matter how good it is, we will often find reasons to put it off, or not do it at all. We’ll be tempted to think that we are not ready, that we are not good enough, that we need to know more or prepare more, that nobody wants us, or that someone else could do it better.
It’s hard enough to not stand back shivering and thinking of the cold and danger. But I can do that. What I have had the hardest time with is the part about scrambling through as well as I can. Whatever it is that I need to do, I want it done well, even to perfection. If I don’t feel ready I have no problem working very hard until I am ready no matter how long it takes, and that’s the problem. Often it takes too long and sometimes the job doesn’t even get done.
I know this attitude is not good, and that it partly has its root in fear of failure. I was never difficult for me to tell others about my problem with procrastination, but it was really difficult to get more specific and call it a fear, even to myself, and that it was hindering my growth and progress. Procrastination almost sounds cool. Being afraid sounds really bad.
What I learned, though, is that doing something you know you should do, even if you don’t feel ready, you have to somehow scramble through. It is one of the fastest ways of getting ready. Fear of failure will block your future, while scrambling through will often be a fast track to progress. At least it gets you in motion, and then you can always adjust the rudder to change direction some time later if needed. Thankfully I am doing better. I’m learning to scramble. My work might not always be perfect, but it’s getting done.